Unlovable and unloved

Do you ever just want to cry your eyes out but tears don't come? And you want somebody to be there for you; somebody; anybody really, but there's nobody there and the ones who are don't have the faintest clue what's going on and the ones who aren't would just think you're pathetic?

People who are sad are pathetic. People who feel too much are scary.

Feel only happy feelings. And never complain. That's not sexy.

Also, don't love too much. It makes you come off as needy.

And needy's not sexy either. It makes you look like a loser.

And nobody wants a loser.

So you cry on the inside. Pretend you're happy. And strong. Invincible.

The circle of life, eh?

Sometimes

Sometimes I just really don't care anymore. I just don't. You obviously can't love me, I obviously can't go away.

So I just stay. And don't care. Hurts less.

Why bother?

I've basically already said goodbye to you. So why bother hoping?

Question no. 2

What drives you to always ALWAYS insist that you're right?

Why do you always have to win?

Well. You won't. Not always.
I'm not giving in. Ever.

And if I ever do, and even if I have already, I won't tell you. You'll never know.

And not knowing, in this case, is not winning.

Question

Is it really this cool to be in your life?

Večna dihotomija

En dan -

Who told me I couldn't do it on my own? Somebody must have.

Cause it's really stuck.


Drug dan -

Zmoreš točno toliko, kolikor si zastaviš.


Ah ja. 

You and me does not equal us

We've both seen sides of each other no one else has seen, and maybe that's the most two people can have.

Some days

Some days I can totally keep it together. Others I just can't.