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Diplomirana in ... samska.

Meant to be

I tried.

I was patient.

I worked so hard.

I graduated.

I did everything right.

But I guess sometimes ... it's just not meant to be.

Vse

Upam, da veš, da je tebi vse odpuščeno.

Vedno.

Čisto vse.

Tebi.

Žalostna.

You come to a point

You come to a point where a hug just doesn't cut it anymore. Where sorry isn't enough.

Something broke in me that day. And now I finally know what J must've felt like. Like he has enough and nothing can make him like me again. I just got on his nerves so much that no amount of smiles or sweet talk could make it right again. And it didn't.

And it won't.

Hvala :)

It's a good thing you'll never read this. You'd roll your eyes SO.HARD, I just know it. "You're so sappy," you'd say.

But I can't help it! I wish you weren't so nice. It's your fault, really. If you weren't such a brilliant human being ...

Thank you. Thank you :) I'm so grateful to know you you wouldn't even believe.

Something cheesy pt 2

... I'm so happy I know you. :)

And I know where this is going. And I'm stopping it, I am. I am in control. I'm different than I was 12 years ago.

However. I'm still very happy to have you in my life.

:)

Come melt with me :)

Such a brilliant man! Even just knowing you makes me happy. 

My secret life

Oh baby I think we both know
This is the love that we won't get right
Still if you said that you wanted
I know I'll always have one more try.

And in my mind we're in my bed
And I'm pulling
Your sweater up over your head.

A lost home

Sometimes I feel like I'm fine on my own, 50,000 miles from home. 

Sometimes I'm weak and the past is my guide, summer returns and puts you back on my mind. 


I'll find my home away from home again. I'll find my team again. I'll find my crazy accomplices again. I'll find my second family again.

I need to believe that. It's Monday and I need to believe that.

Črtica

Dež. Večer. Odprem balkonska vrata.

Od nekod cigaretni dim.

V trenutku mi naslika tvoj obraz.

Kaplje pokljajo ob lesketajoč se asfalt.

Jaz pa kar ne morem zapreti vrat.

Ej!

Ivan Šarić me TUDI spominja nate! In to prav v tem posnetku. In to vse do konca. :)

The weird one

If you develop soft spots, people are liable to stick sharp objects into them.

Unlovable and unloved

Do you ever just want to cry your eyes out but tears don't come? And you want somebody to be there for you; somebody; anybody really, but there's nobody there and the ones who are don't have the faintest clue what's going on and the ones who aren't would just think you're pathetic?

People who are sad are pathetic. People who feel too much are scary.

Feel only happy feelings. And never complain. That's not sexy.

Also, don't love too much. It makes you come off as needy.

And needy's not sexy either. It makes you look like a loser.

And nobody wants a loser.

So you cry on the inside. Pretend you're happy. And strong. Invincible.

The circle of life, eh?

Sometimes

Sometimes I just really don't care anymore. I just don't. You obviously can't love me, I obviously can't go away.

So I just stay. And don't care. Hurts less.

Why bother?

I've basically already said goodbye to you. So why bother hoping?

Question no. 2

What drives you to always ALWAYS insist that you're right?

Why do you always have to win?

Well. You won't. Not always.
I'm not giving in. Ever.

And if I ever do, and even if I have already, I won't tell you. You'll never know.

And not knowing, in this case, is not winning.

Question

Is it really this cool to be in your life?

Večna dihotomija

En dan -

Who told me I couldn't do it on my own? Somebody must have.

Cause it's really stuck.


Drug dan -

Zmoreš točno toliko, kolikor si zastaviš.


Ah ja. 

You and me does not equal us

We've both seen sides of each other no one else has seen, and maybe that's the most two people can have.

Some days

Some days I can totally keep it together. Others I just can't.

Prostor zame

To, se mi zdi, je en tak ponavljajoč motiv v naših življenjih. Ne glede na to, kje si, ne glede na to, kaj delaš, na koncu si vedno sam/a.

Saj ne vem, mogoče je to OK. Mogoče je to bolje. Prej kot ugotoviš, da se lahko zanašaš samo nase, prej manj pričakuješ od vseh, ki naj bi ti "stali ob strani, vedno, prisežem". 

Jaz sem se že davno navadila. Sama sem za vse. Sama na sceni. Pa katerikoli že. 

Ti veš

Ti veš, kako čisto broken sem.

Kako se ne maram.

Kako blesavo čustvena sem.

Kako ne morem biti sama.

Samo ti veš to. Samo ti si to videl.


In?

It's all moot because you can't help me. You shouldn't. And you won't.

There are no words

Ne bom te hvalila. Ni moje mesto, da te.

But know this.

There are no words.

No words to describe how brilliant you are to me. To everyone. And to me, especially to me.

How happy I am to know you. How grateful. How much you mean to me.

It may not mean much to you, all this coming from me. But know ... that there are no words.

Konci in začetki

Čin, ti ahasverka.

Da se nikoli ne bi nehala spraševati.

Tvoja J.

Nekaj čisto cheesy

Če bi bil ti v soboto na primorki, bi bil tisti z lučko.

Prav vem.